Silently putting down his hands, Zhang Xiaoqiang took a deep breath. He had always been at a loss and did not know what he really wanted. His achievements were pushed by external forces step by step. In fact, he had always been passive and had never thought of taking the initiative to fight for something. Many times, he had set various goals for himself, but in fact, those goals were not what he really wanted. He had always wanted to find a place to hide, where he could have a few children and live a peaceful life. Unfortunately, after the apocalypse, he could not find a place to hide and there was no peaceful life for him. Too many battles had found their way to his door, whether he was willing or not.
But at this moment, when he wanted to hug his son, he felt a strong sense of guilt. Even if he washed himself from head to toe, he could not wash away the thick smell of blood on his hands. His son's eyes were so pure and his skin so delicate that he did not dare to touch them, for fear of staining the most holy things in his heart.
Suddenly, an incomparably strong desire flashed in his heart. There was a kind of impulse that made him want to vent out loud. He never wanted to see this child with the purest eyes follow his old path, taking lives one after another, experiencing cruel battles, enjoying the victory while enduring the pain of his wounds. He did not want his son to become a so-called hero leader, he only wanted his son to live a peaceful life, to have his own children, to enjoy the sunshine freely, to have his own interests, to find a girl or a few girls, to experience a marriage or a few breakups.
He only wanted his son to become an ordinary person, not to need to worry about life, not to need to kill for survival, and not to need to bear the expectations of millions of people. But it was easier said than done.
This world was the world of zombies, the world of mutant beasts, and even the world of the new era, but it was not Zhang Xiaoqiang's world. He did not know how many lives and deaths were waiting for him, and he did not know how many years it would take for his son to see that peaceful life.
"Let all the sins stop with me. Let me bear all the killing. You'll be responsible for growing up healthily and propagating for our Zhang family …"
Zhang Xiao Qiang stared at the baby who was playing with his toes. He suddenly made a vow in his heart that he would end all the wars and kill all the enemies before he could fight. No matter if it was zombies or mutant beasts, no matter if it was the New Era or any other forces, he had to destroy them before his son grew up. No matter how many zombies he had to kill, no matter how many humans he had to kill, no matter how many subordinates he had to kill, he would bear all the sins and use the blade in his hand to create a truly peaceful world.
"Why don't you hug him, he is always looking at you, smiling at you, he likes you …"
Mu Peipei's soft voice came from his side, her voice had a strange rhythm, like a young girl reading in the morning, exuding a quiet and peaceful feeling, which made Zhang Xiaoqiang feel a kind of peace from the bottom of his heart. He turned his head and saw the beautiful Mu Peipei was staring at his son with her most moving eyes, her slender white fingers slowly slid across his son's delicate face, there was some pride, and also some love.
"From now on, his name will be Zhang Ping, so that he can live a peaceful life, not like us, struggling on the line between life and death all day …"
Zhang Xiaoqiang's words were very cold, like plain water. When Mu Peipei heard Zhang Xiaoqiang's words, her loving expression slightly changed, she turned her head to look at Zhang Xiaoqiang and said, "Are you not used to it?
Looking at this child makes you feel old? "
Zhang Xiaoqiang let out a long sigh, reached out his hand to touch Mu Peipei's smooth and tender face, looked into her eyes and said,
"The child will be under your care in the future, I owe you a favor. I know you don't like me, and you will feel disgusted when you are with me, I won't force you to be with me, as long as you don't find other men, I can never touch you …"
This was Zhang Xiaoqiang's compensation to Mu Peipei, it was his wishful thinking that Mu Peipei hated him, and when he went to find Mu Peipei to vent his anger during the retreat, it was only because of her beauty. The two of them had no feelings for each other, so there was no kinship. Their only bond was this child in front of him, with this child, Zhang Xiaoqiang suddenly discovered the true meaning of life, so he was willing to satisfy any of Mu Peipei's requests and expectations.
"What do you mean by this?
When the child was born, you were not there, and when you came back, you were in the conference room for a meeting. From the moment you entered the base, the child and I waited for you for a long time. When you finally came, you were not willing to hold him, and you said these strange things. What do you think we are?
If you don't want him, I can take him away, so that you will never see him again … "
The kind and peaceful Mu Peipei disappeared, and the arrogant and stubborn Mu Peipei came back. She hit off Zhang Xiaoqiang's big hand and scolded him, making Zhang Xiaoqiang feel slightly bitter. He didn't know how to explain it, nor did he know how to communicate with Mu Peipei. He could see that Mu Peipei had always been very accommodating to him for the sake of the child and even put down all her dignity, but he couldn't say his so-called difficulties. He was afraid that Mu Peipei wouldn't agree that his child could only be an ordinary person forever. The fate of an ordinary person was sad, and they could never completely control their own fate. However, as a superior person, the burden was too heavy, and he didn't want his child to follow his old path.
The anger was somewhat stiff. Zhang Xiaoqiang's difficulties became perfunctory in Mu Peipei's heart. She even thought that Zhang Xiaoqiang didn't like her son because of her. Thinking that this sweet little baby could not get Zhang Xiaoqiang's fatherly love since he was born, her rapidly fluctuating heart almost exploded. She seemed to have returned to her childhood, when her father could ignore her because of his work. When her father finally retired and was not so busy, she remembered to ease the relationship between father and daughter. At that time, she had no love for her father, only hatred.
She did not want her child to walk the same path as her. She wanted to give him a complete family, a complete kinship, even if she had to pay the price of her dignity and grievances. However, Zhang Xiao Qiang had actually said such words, causing her heart to turn cold and infuriated at the same time.
Zhang Xiaoqiang saw the anger in Mu Peipei's eyes, and suddenly a flash of understanding flashed in his heart. If he couldn't persuade Mu Peipei, perhaps from today onwards, he would never see his son again. Mu Peipei at that moment was like an enraged mother beast. For the sake of her child, she would go crazy and attack everything that threatened her child, including him.
"Peipei …"
Zhang Xiaoqiang called her by her nickname, but it wasn't enough to extinguish Mu Peipei's anger. Then he pressed his hands on Mu Peipei's shoulders. Mu Peipei couldn't break free, so she stared at Zhang Xiaoqiang and gnashed her teeth. If Zhang Xiaoqiang didn't say anything, she would absolutely not comply. She didn't want her child to be reduced to the treatment of the ancient collateral descendants. She wanted to fight for the title of the eldest son for her son.
Zhang Xiaoqiang pulled a chair over and sat beside Mu Peipei. He looked at his son with her and said:
"After the apocalypse, I don't know how many times I've been on the verge of death. Many times, I even believed that I would die, and I wouldn't be able to see the sun the next day. If it wasn't for my good luck, you guys wouldn't be able to see me. Just like this time, in order to rush back to see my son's birth, I was seriously injured at least three times. I killed a lot of people and zombies, and I also met a lot of powerful enemies. I don't even dare to think about how many battles I will face in the future. A person's luck can't be so good forever. If I'm not careful, I might not be here that day. This kind of life isn't what I want. But I can't run, and I can't hide.
Do you want your son to be like me?
If I run and escape, what about the people following me? You might not believe it, but I really don't want to be a leader, and I don't want to be a leader. I just want to live peacefully with you guys. But the whole world is dangerous. Unless we hide on the moon, as long as we want to live in this world, we will have to face all kinds of dangers and battles. Do you want your son to be like me in the future? "
Zhang Xiaoqiang's words touched Mu Peipei's heart. Her previous words finally forced Zhang Xiaoqiang's heart out. No matter what, Mu Peipei was also the mother of his child. Mu Peipei's previous accommodations were because she didn't want her child to have no father's love. How could he not want his child to have no mother's love?
Mu Peipei didn't say anything. She just stared blankly at Hao 'er. Zhang Xiaoqiang stayed by her side. When the child woke up from his sleep, the two of them immediately got busy. Mu Peipei instructed Zhang Xiaoqiang to get paper diapers and hot water towels. She took care of the child's urine. Zhang Xiaoqiang was busy, and finally, the child's bedwetting problem was solved. Looking at the child who was drinking milk, Zhang Xiaoqiang wiped the sweat off his forehead. Suddenly, he looked up and stared at the woman who was feeding the child.
Mu Peipei didn't avoid Zhang Xiaoqiang. She calmly pulled up her clothes to feed the child. Noticing that Zhang Xiaoqiang was staring at her, she couldn't help but roll her eyes at Zhang Xiaoqiang. To her surprise, Zhang Xiaoqiang didn't look at her chest at all. He just said seriously, "Thank you so much. If I don't raise a child, I won't know the kindness of parents. I've never done my duty as a father. It's always you who do all the work. In the future, if you ask me for anything, I will …"
"He is also my son. If I don't love my son, who will?"