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In a trance, Chuxun seemed to see Ji Tianze from ten years ago when he was still a teenager. At that time, he would always stand at the door and say, "Little Xun, let's go home."
Chuxun thought of the high school students he met yesterday. The carefree teenagers were as white and clean as the first snow. Perhaps he used to be like that too, holding his heart in front of Ji Tianze and being trampled on, becoming filthy.
Even if he was trampled on a few more times, it wouldn't be more embarrassing.
And Ji Tianze also changed. He became sophisticated and shrewd. His face was repulsive.
Chuxun was at a loss. Did he actually love this person before?
This selfish and mean man?
He loved him so much that he gave up ten years of his youth without any regrets and didn't ask for anything in return?
Was there really such a stupid person in the world?
Zhuang Hanxue actually heard a little about Chuxun's private life. There were a lot of rumors and they were all unpleasant to hear.
How could a man in his late thirties have a clean private life?
Never touched women?
Even female colleagues were indifferent to his advances?
They were all men. How could there be such a person in the world?
If he wasn't impotent, then he was gay!
Zhuang Hanxue's mind suddenly lit up. He quickly let go of Chuxun's hand. Although he was a playboy, he didn't want to be a third party in a gay couple. He repeatedly denied, "Sir, you misunderstood. I'm just Chuxun's boss."
"He suddenly wants to resign.
I'm very distressed, so I came to beg him to stay. "
Chuxun felt that it was ridiculous. Why would he talk to Ji Tianze like that? It was as if he was his boyfriend.
Chuxun came back to his senses and looked at Zhuang Hanxue. "What do you want to explain to him?"
Ji Tianze then realized that he misunderstood Chuxun. He said awkwardly, "Can't you speak properly?
It's my fault for misunderstanding you. If you speak better, I won't make a mistake. "
Chuxun looked at him coldly. "Even if I really fall in love with someone else, what does it have to do with you?
We were just friends in the past, and now we're not even friends. What right do you have to control me? "
Ji Tianze was hit by Chuxun's words. He had long been used to Chuxun's docility. Now, this Chuxun seemed to be possessed by someone else. He was covered in sharp thorns. If you touched him, your hand would be covered in blood.
In this world, when two people interacted with each other, it was always you who was strong and I who was weak. Since Chuxun was so tough, Ji Tianze softened. "I'm just being nice. Do you have to be like this?
I'm here to apologize to you. Who told you to get involved with someone else? "
It was not that he did not know that Chuxun liked him, but he was a straight man. How could he accept Chuxun?
However, he could not accept Chuxun liking someone else.
This was the most absurd of all.
Chuxun was suddenly enraged. "I'm being kind?
When have you ever been worried about me?
Now you're saying this to me? "
He had not been feeling well for a day or two. Ji Tianze had never cared about him. He had gone to the hospital a few times for checkups, but Ji Tianze never found out. He thought that he was working overtime and complained that he did not have time to do chores!
He still had the nerve to say that he was worried about him!
Funny, too funny.
Chuxun had never been so angry with him. It seemed like he really wanted to break up with him. Ji Tianze said, "So I'm here to look for you?"
"I … I'm apologizing to you. Is that not enough?"
Chuxun thought that if Ji Tianze had given in to him yesterday, he might have turned back. Chuxun took a step back. "It's too late."
Ji Tianze was very depressed. What did Chuxun want from him?
He had taken the initiative to apologize. Even if there were conflicts in the past, Chuxun would forgive him if he gave in slightly.
Why did it not work?
Why?
He thought that Chuxun was in the palm of his hand and could be manipulated by him. Why did he suddenly become rebellious?
In a moment of desperation, Ji Tianze blurted out, "You don't like me anymore?"
Chuxun sneered. "So you know that I used to like you?
I thought you were going to pretend until you died. "
Ji Tianze really did not understand. "What are you angry about?
Wasn't it the same as usual yesterday?
You're angry with me for no reason. "
He was a little angry as he spoke. He did not want to be at a disadvantage and be manipulated by Chuxun. "I'm not pretending. I just didn't mention it.
Moreover, I didn't ask you to like me. You liked me on your own accord and then suddenly didn't like me. Now you're blaming me for not liking you!
You liked me on your own accord. I didn't force you. "
Every word was heartfelt.
"Yes, yes. It's all my fault."
Chuxun laughed. "It's all my fault. You didn't do anything wrong. Please step out of my house and never come back again."
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Ji Tianze did not want to cut ties with Chuxun, but he could not lower his head. It had always been Chuxun trying to please him. He did not know how to please Chuxun.
He was angry for the whole day. Today, he went to buy a gift for Chuxun. After shopping around the mall, he could not remember what Chuxun liked. However, he guessed that Chuxun would like whatever he gave him.
Chuxun looked at him. His heart was calm. He did not have much resentment. He only felt irritated.
In the face of life and death, what was love and hatred?
He had spent half of his life on Ji Tianze. Was he going to continue?
To him, Ji Tianze was like a stock with no returns. He should have stopped his losses long ago. However, he had invested too much too early. He always hesitated and was trapped. In the end, he suffered a huge loss.
Chuxun chased him away. "Why aren't you leaving?"
Ji Tianze was upset and did not know how to deal with him. "How did you become like this?"
Chuxun was cold and heartless. "I didn't change. I'm just like this. I'm just pretending in front of you.
Take your trash with you and don't appear in front of me again. "
Ji Tianze was so angry that he laughed. "Okay, okay. Remember what you said."
Chuxun said, "I remember it clearly."
It was a fierce battle. Both sides suffered.
Chuxun held the door and panted. He felt a dull pain in his chest and lower abdomen.
After a while, he heard a crunching sound. Chuxun turned around and saw Zhuang Hanxue sitting on the sofa. He was eating pastries from the snack box on the coffee table. Half of the box was gone.
Chuxun was stunned. "You haven't left?" He was so focused on arguing with Ji Tianze that he forgot there was someone else.
Zhuang Hanxue smiled and patted the pastry crumbs on his hands. He said embarrassedly, "My mouth is dry. Do you have juice?
Please pour me a glass. It's better if it's coconut milk. "
Chuxun: "… …"
Chuxun: "Get lost."
Zhuang Hanxue hugged the sofa tightly and said directly, "Brother Chu, I'll keep your secret!"
Chuxun pushed his glasses up. "Are you threatening me?"
Zhuang Hanxue shook his head repeatedly. "I wouldn't dare … … If you're willing to return to the company, I'll introduce you to a good boyfriend."
Chuxun was so angry that he laughed. "Oh, you get lost too."
Zhuang Hanxue continued to act shamelessly. "It's okay. I'll come to you tomorrow … …"
Chuxun sneered. "Do you think I'll fall for your trick and open the door for you?"
They started to fight again.
Zhuang Hanxue begged. "Brother Chu, Brother Chu, you have to give me a reason!
Otherwise, I won't give up. "
Chuxun couldn't stop him. He let go of his hand and said angrily, "Because I'm dying!
Are you satisfied with this reason? "
Zhuang Hanxue was stunned. "What do you mean?"
Chuxun's face was cold. He took a deep breath and lowered his voice. Every word was clear and his tone was indifferent. It was as if he was talking about someone else. "Literally. I have a terminal illness. The doctor said that I only have half a year to live."
The room instantly fell into a deathly silence.
A gust of wind blew in and the cloth curtain fluttered.
Zhuang Hanxue stood there for a long time. He wanted to say something but stopped. "… … I'm sorry."
"Can you get lost now?"
Chuxun closed his eyes and took a deep breath to control his temper. "You forced me to say it. I hate it when people look at me like that."
Zhuang Hanxue had mixed feelings. He finally got up and left. He walked to the door and stopped. "I'll get you a doctor?
You can go back to the company after you're cured. "
Chuxun couldn't hold it in anymore. He picked up a fruit on the table and threw it at him. "You're so annoying."
Zhuang Hanxue shrank back. "Okay, okay, I'll go."
He threw another apple. Chuxun scolded him fiercely. "Don't tell anyone!"
Zhuang Hanxue muttered, "You don't look like a dying man."
Chuxun felt uncomfortable. This old space made him feel suffocated. It was like a coffin with nails. He couldn't stay here any longer.
Chuxun went online and booked a presidential suite in a five-star hotel. He left early the next morning. Before he left, he broke his SIM card and replaced it with an anonymous card.
Chuxun arrived at the hotel at noon. He wanted to have fun, but he didn't know where to start.
He had lived an honest life for 29 years. He had never indulged in pleasure. He didn't even know how to have fun.
Chuxun held his breath. It was just having fun. What was so difficult about it?
He thought about it. The most regrettable thing in his life was that he had lived like a Taoist priest. He was still a virgin at this age. He didn't want to die an old virgin.
He had been in the secular world for so many years. Even if he hadn't done it, he had seen it.
Chuxun dialed a number. He had been to this city before and knew someone who was in the pimping business. Chuxun ordered. "I want a handsome guy. He must be young and handsome. He must be under 25 years old. He must be good in bed.
The price is not a problem. "
The other party got the deposit. "He will arrive tonight.
Which room are you staying in? "
Chuxun said, "2509."
The lights were lit.
A silver-black motorcycle was like a flash of lightning. It sped across the street and finally stopped in front of the hotel.
The motorcycle rider's long legs landed on the ground. He held the bike and took off his helmet, revealing a handsome face.
The driver came forward. He threw the keys and the motorcycle helmet to the driver and asked him to park the bike. He walked away with a cold face.
He looked about 25 years old. As a man, he had just shed his naivety but not too mature. He still had a clean and youthful look. He wore a leather jacket, jeans, sneakers, and black leather gloves. His clothes looked rebellious, but he didn't dye his hair or wear any earrings.
Like a wild and untamed lone wolf without any pretense.
He went to the counter to get the room key.
"2506. It's on the 25th floor."
He didn't go upstairs. Instead, he went to a nearby bar to drink. He only returned to the hotel when he felt the alcohol rush to his head.
He found the room.
He didn't know why he couldn't open the door. His head was a little muddled from the alcohol. He knocked.
Someone opened the door for him. A man was standing at the door. When he saw him, he seemed a little nervous. He reached out and pulled him.
“？”
Chuxun's hand was shaking. He laughed at himself for being a coward. He calmed down and said, "Come in."