I held a cigarette in my mouth to calm myself down.
Director You also picked up a cigarette and lit it. Then, he said, "In order to achieve great things, there will always be people at the bottom who will be sacrificed!
People who are overcautious and afraid of death will never succeed!
Just like on a battlefield, there will always be people who rush to the front to take the bullet, and there will always be people who are accidentally killed by their own people. This is unavoidable!
I called you out today because I was afraid that you would be soft-hearted. If you are soft-hearted, all your previous efforts will be wasted and you will fail on the verge of success. Do you know that? "
I didn't dare to look Director You in the eye. "I would rather waste all my previous efforts than be like Chen Fusheng and kill the innocent!"
Director You said, "Okay, okay, okay. Don't get too worked up. We are just hypotheticals!
Hypotheticals! "
I felt a terrible headache. I pinched my forehead and said, "Director You, I know that what you said makes sense.
But, but I, I really can't do it!
Not to mention innocent people, even if they are bad people, even if they are members of the organization, they are still people. They are all living things. I can't bear to kill them! "
Director You smiled helplessly. "I knew you would think that way!
But let me give you an example!
Let's say you have two choices: two loaches and ten goldfish.
If you can save the ten goldfish by killing the two loaches, will you do it?
On the other hand, if you don't kill the two loaches, you won't be able to save the ten goldfish, but the two loaches will still die!
Think about it, which way would you choose? "
I could understand the subtext in Director You's words.
His analogy was accurate, but the murderous intent was too strong.
I didn't reply.
Director You seemed to be impatient. He continued, "Zhao Long, I know what you are thinking!
But, but there are many times when we don't have a choice.
Isn't that right? "
I asked in return, "Director You, then tell me, if you were in a similar situation, what would you do?"
Director You said, "This is a revolution!
A revolution requires blood! "
I asked again, "So you can kill the innocent?
If Chen Fusheng wanted to send me to assassinate you, would I have to do it? "Maybe I was too emotional, but I made such an analogy!
I don't think I drank too much. I didn't feel drunk at all.
But I didn't know why, but I couldn't control my impulsive emotions.
Director You's silence for a moment, his face filled with worry.
I didn't say anything else, but kept thinking about Chief You's words.
.. I would rather believe that he was really drunk!
But, Director You didn't give up......................................
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Your way of thinking has decided the fate of the country and the fate of many people! "
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I called the waiter over and brought a pot of tea over.
It wasn't to dispel the alcohol, but to calm the mind.
Director You and I sat there in a daze for five minutes. We didn't say anything.
We drink our own wine and our own tea.
But in our hearts, we both had our own thoughts.
I admit that Director You's words made sense!
There were many things that couldn't be avoided or avoided.
Director You calmed down, took another sip of wine, and said, "You have to understand that I'm not asking you to kill the innocent. Everything you do is to save more people. More people who are targeted by Chen Fusheng!"
I took a sip of tea, and my mood calmed down a little.
I said to Director You, "I understand.
But, I'm afraid that Chen Fusheng will ask me to carry out some plan that will harm the innocent.
If that's the case, I'll be in a difficult position. "
Director You said, "If you're afraid, you don't have to face it?"
I said, "Of course, you have to face it."
Director You said, "I believe that you can weigh the pros and cons. We don't have any other choice!
I'm telling you this today because I don't want you to ruin the big picture because of a moment of rashness!
It wasn't easy for you to come this far. It wasn't easy at all! "
I nodded and said, "I know.
Sigh, ever since I took on this mission, I was destined to choose a path of no return.
Everything I do, I have to pretend. I can't do things according to my own wishes.
I admit it! "
Director You took a mouthful of food and said, "If you have no other choice, sacrifice the pawn to protect the cart.
This is my most important piece of advice to you!
If you can avoid it, try to avoid it. But if you can't, sacrifice the pawn to protect the cart, or even the general.
Reality is cruel. We have no other choice. "
I didn't have the courage to argue anymore. Just now, I did argue with Director You. But after calming down and thinking about it, Director You's words weren't without reason.
It's a revolution, so there must be sacrifices.
I'm not afraid of making sacrifices, but I'm afraid that more people will pay a heavy price for this operation.
In fact, many times, I've been worried that Chen Fusheng will arrange some assassination plans for me.
Because the people he wants to get rid of must belong to the patriotic party. They are the kind of people who contribute to the country and society. I can't do it.
But if I don't do it, all my previous efforts will be in vain!
Chen Fusheng won't trust me anymore. He might even kill me.
This scene is too cruel. It's full of blood at any time. Every step has a heavy price to pay.
In this regard, Director You suggested that we should sacrifice the pawn to protect the cart. Isn't that a great plan?
Apart from this, there may be no better way to deal with it!
However, I can't accept this kind of result.
Then, Director You and I each ordered a bowl of noodle soup and ended the meal.
We drove back.
On the way, Director You didn't say a word. But his dignified expression indicated that there were too many things on his mind.
After sending Director You home, I prepared to leave.
Director You still urged me, "Remember, sacrifice the pawn to protect the cart. Consider the overall situation!
When you have no other choice, you must be decisive! "
I said with a heavy heart, "I understand, Director You.
I'll try my best. "
After leaving Director You's house, when I was about to go up the road, I saw a luxurious imported Chevrolet stop in front of Director You's building.
Who came to visit Director You?
With some guesses, I looked in that direction. But the two people who got out of the car gave me a big surprise.
To be exact, it was a man and a woman.
The man was Man Benny, and the woman was You Meng!
I thought I was mistaken, but after rubbing my eyes, I was sure of it.
I would never forget You Meng's figure. She was still chewing a bubble gum in her mouth, like an angel.
As for Man Benny, he was holding You Meng's arm intimately, talking and laughing with her.
This scene seriously stimulated my brain and my heart.
I couldn't help but clench my fists.
It turned out that everyone was deceiving me, including You Meng!
What was the relationship between her and this hateful American?
I didn't have time to think, I quickly got out of the car, and practically roared at the backs of the two people, "Stop!
Stop right there! "
You Meng was the first to stop. Man Benny quietly let go of You Meng's arm and turned his head to look.
When You Meng found out it was me, she was stunned!
Although I was dozens of meters away from them, I could clearly see the special look in You Meng's eyes.
Was it a kind of guilt?
I was fighting on the front line, but she was cheating on me at home!
Was my backyard really on fire?
No matter how good Chopin was, he couldn't play the sadness Zhao Long felt at this moment!
It turned out that I had been comforting myself that none of this was real!
I blindly believed Director You and You Meng's cover up. I thought You Meng and Man Benny were just ordinary friends, or the kind of relationship Director You said.
But when I saw the two of them walking side by side in the car, I quickly got the answer in my heart.
To be exact, anyone who saw them would inevitably be suspicious.
Before this, You Meng had been lying to me, saying that she was at her classmate's house!
But now, I saw her with my own eyes, with Man Benny!
This kind of gap between the truth and the lie, didn't it tell me something?
Seeing me suddenly appear, You Meng looked a little nervous.
She looked at me, wanting to say something, but hesitated.
Man Benny shrugged his shoulders and said, "Oh, it's Zhao Long!
You, why are you here again? "
I frowned and glared at Man Benny, asking back, "Why can't I be here?"
You Meng suddenly walked towards me with light steps.
I heard a whine in the sound of her footsteps.
She was wearing a white coat with black edges, making her look like a pure and lovely angel.
But at this moment, her angelic image had been seriously blasphemed.
Recalling the beautiful things between You Meng and me, my heart was bleeding.
I really hoped that it was all just a dream, but why did the lover in front of me feel so real?
You Meng moved closer to me and said a little sluggishly, "You, why are you here?"
Her voice was very soft, maybe she was guilty?
I gritted my teeth, and tears almost welled up in my eyes.
I spat out word by word, "You didn't want me to come, did you?
Did I mess up your date by coming here?
Did I? "
You Meng looked at me hurriedly and said, "What are you talking about!
Zhao Long, don't misunderstand.
There's really nothing between me and Man Benny! "
I sneered, "Nothing?
He's holding your arm, and there's nothing?
I'm afraid that when there's no one around, you guys might have done something!
You Meng, I really didn't expect this, I really don't understand! "
You Meng spat out the bubble gum in her mouth and looked at me anxiously, "What are you talking about, you!"
She came up and grabbed my arm, pulling it, and looked back at Man Benny.