"Ayin, I've let you down."
"I'll never be able to repay what I owe you in this life."
As Tang Hao spoke, he suddenly gulped down all the strong alcohol in the jug.
Only strong alcohol could numb him and make him temporarily forget the wrongs he had done in the past.
Even he was unable to forgive himself for the wrongs he had committed.
How could he pray that he would be forgiven by others?
He should live in repentance for the rest of his life.
He deserved all of this.
Suddenly, Tang Hao stood up abruptly, the decadence in his eyes completely swept away.
There was only scarlet killing intent on his face. He could sense that the restriction he had left on Ayin's body had been broken.
"Not good, something happened to Ayin."
Tang Hao took out a simple black box from his body. The box had just been exposed to the air, and it seemed to be trembling as it felt Ayin's life force that was constantly growing stronger.
The moment the box was opened, a sparkling and translucent blue-gold soul bone was flickering with an azure light.
Tang Hao saw this strange change and became even more anxious in his heart.
He didn't know whether this strange change in Ayin's soul bone was good or bad, but he knew that Ayin must have encountered trouble.
The Bluesilver Grass that Ayin had transformed into was no different from ordinary Bluesilver Grass.
And to be able to break the restriction he had left behind, it had to be at least a thousand-year soul beast or an expert above the Soul Ancestor level.
Ayin currently didn't have any power to resist in front of such an expert.
At that time, that soul beast or human could do whatever they wanted to Ayin. It would be fine if it was a human, but what if it was a plant-type soul beast that ate Ayin?
Thinking of this, a terrifying aura erupted from Tang Hao's body. His emotions were somewhat agitated, and his heart was somewhat afraid.
Right now, Ayin was only left with a seed. As long as that Bluesilver Grass slowly grew, Ayin would come back to life.
But if something happened to the last Bluesilver Grass, then Ayin would have no more hope.
"Ayin, wait for me. Wait for me for a while.
Just wait for a while more.
I'll be right there. "
Tang Hao said with a trembling voice. He circulated all the soul power in his body and frantically ran into the distance.
There was a trace of hatred in his heart, not hatred for others, but hatred for himself.
He hated himself for causing Ayin's death and causing him, who was supposed to be the Sect Master of the Clear Sky Sect, to become like this. He hated himself even more for not being able to protect the last Bluesilver Grass seedling that Ayin had turned into.
He really hated himself.
Ayin was so beautiful and gentle, so why did he still have such hateful thoughts?
Why couldn't he plant Ayin's seed by his side? Why couldn't he protect Ayin?
At this moment, when he sensed that Ayin was in danger, he felt how laughable and incompetent he was.
He was the Vast Heaven Douluo, but he was nothing more than an animal who had killed his own woman.
Tang Hao could not help but clutch at his own chest. If something happened to Ayin's sprout, he could not imagine how much he would hate himself.
However, at the same time, for some reason, he felt a sense of relief.
Back then, he had planted Ayin in a cave. That place was damp, dark, and had no light. It was also a stone wall.
It was to let Ayin fend for herself …
If Ayin really died, then he would be free.
Everything in the past would vanish into thin air.
The thought of letting Ayin completely die and the anxiety that Ayin might be in danger appeared in his heart at the same time, giving him a splitting headache.
In the twelve years since Ayin's tragic death, there were two voices in his mind almost every day.
One voice told him, "You're a demon. You killed your own wife. You're not human."
This voice made him live in remorse and made him hate himself. At the same time, he cherished the memories of Ayin in his mind even more.
The other voice called out, "Since you've already done it, everything can't be undone.
Why don't you go all the way and directly destroy the seed that Ayin has turned into?
As long as Ayin is completely dead, everything will become a thing of the past.
No one will know what you've done.
You won't have to carry any psychological burden.
Death can solve all problems. Once she's completely dead, you won't have to suffer so much anymore. "
The two different voices resounded in his heart, making him feel an indescribable pain.
He couldn't make up his mind, so he planted Ayin in a remote place and didn't fertilize her, leaving her to fend for herself.
That way, he wouldn't have to make such a painful choice. He could leave everything to the heavens.
"Ayin, I've let you down."
"If you're still alive this time, I'll definitely treat you well.
If you die in the hands of a soul beast this time, don't bother me in the future.
Let me go, and let yourself go. "Tang Hao couldn't help but mutter.
He once again left the choice to the heavens.
If Ayin didn't die this time, no matter what, he would bring Ayin back safely. In the future, he would accept all the mistakes he had made, properly repent, and do his best to make up for everything he had done.
If Ayin died, then he would be completely wrong.
In this lifetime, no one would know that he was the one behind Ayin's death.
… …
Tang Hao quickly headed in Ayin's direction.
Xu Ran had already arranged everything. With the help of the system lady, all traces were covered up.
Xu Ran used the system's plant cultivation fluid to water Ayin multiple times.
With the naked eye, he could see that the Bluesilver Grass that Ayin had turned into became more energetic, and the grass became fuller.