It was just a turn of his back, but it turned out that it hurt her so much.
He never thought about it. Perhaps even she herself never thought about it.
Qin Xi was Qin Shoujing. When she realized this, she tried to accept it, but he used an indifferent attitude to reject her approach. Therefore, she firmly believed that Qin Shoujing wasn't Qin Xi.
But this inference was completely wrong!
Why did he do that back then?
Because he had a little bit of a good impression of her, but his self-esteem was hurt by those two Deification cultivators. He rejected her approach because his pointless self-esteem was hurt, and also because … at that time, he didn't have that many feelings for her.
"That's because …"
This time, she gave him time, but he couldn't say it.
Because at that time, they didn't have such deep feelings for each other?
Even if this was the truth, if he said it out loud, there really wouldn't be any hope left.
Apart from this, what else could he say?
He wasn't a liar, and he definitely wasn't a person who spoke sweet words.
He was clumsy with his words, and the words he said were always true.
He only did something like deceiving someone once, and it was only that one time. Now, he already paid the price for it.
For a long time, Qin Xi didn't answer, so her expression gradually turned into a sneer. "Can't say it?"
He turned his head, not knowing how to face her gaze.
"You're always like this — you give me the wrong impression, then back away, leaving me to struggle in the whirlpool alone. When I climb up, you want to pull me down again … I've formed my Gold Core, so I'm indifferent to it. If you ignore me, my feelings will probably slowly die. But why do you still have to provoke me?
Qin Shoujing, you just know I love you! "
When she shouted these words, even she herself didn't realize how wronged she was.
In this life, she lost too many things, so she wasn't afraid to lose them.
However, she hated this feeling of not being able to have them and not being able to let them go!
When she formed her Gold Core, she calmly dealt with this feeling. If it weren't for his faintly discernible teasing during this period of time, maybe after a few more years, this feeling would've really disappeared.
But he didn't let her go.
Along the way, he seemed to be both affectionate and heartless. One moment he was too nice to her, and the next moment he was cold. He didn't seduce her as openly as Jing Xingzhi did. If he did, perhaps her remaining feelings for him would have disappeared without a trace. He just stood at a distance that seemed to be far, yet close at the same time. She couldn't get close to him, couldn't leave him, and couldn't bear to part with him.
"Can't say it?"
Mo Tiange calmed down and stopped him just as he was about to speak. The emotions that had been accumulating for several decades were vented out, but there was no response.
She raised her head and looked at him with a bit of arrogance. "Then there's no need to say anything else. I've reached the Core Formation realm, and I'll continue on my path to the Nascent Soul realm!
Today's matter ends here. I don't want to hear any more excuses. Please keep your distance from me! "
"No …" How could he stop now?
Especially after what she said!
"Tiange …"
She couldn't retreat any further, so she could only turn her back to him. If she couldn't see his face, perhaps she wouldn't be soft-hearted anymore.
But his arms wrapped around her from behind. The gap was so narrow that she couldn't break free at all.
His breath was right next to her ear, carrying uncontrollable excitement. "How can I keep my distance from you? You … you said you loved me …"
"So what?" She sneered. "Didn't you already know?"
"I didn't know!"
He forcibly turned her body around. "I knew you had a good impression of the former 'Senior Martial Brother Qin', but I didn't know how deep your feelings were. I thought … I thought …" He was so excited that he was a bit incoherent. "Since you can form your Gold Core, you're definitely no longer … at least not that much …"
After saying a bunch of nonsense, he became serious again and asked seriously, "Why can you form your Gold Core?"
Mo Tiange was stunned. She was furious. "What do you mean 'why can I form my Gold Core'?
Are you going to be happy if I can't form my Gold Core? "
"Of course not!" Qin Xi was so anxious that he didn't know what to say. "But … but … I can't form my Nascent Soul!
I thought of a lot of methods — medicinal pills, mental cultivation, even … even letting master use a secret technique to enter my sea of knowledge, but I always failed on the verge of success. It doesn't make sense that you can … "
"What does it have to do with me that you can't form your Nascent Soul?!" She became even angrier. "Let go!"
"No! I'd be an idiot if I still let go after you said so!
Master will definitely beat me to death if he finds out! "
"You …"
"Wait a minute!" He calmed down a bit. "Let me think about what to say."
No matter how he thought about it, he still didn't know what to say. Therefore, in the end, Qin Xi gave up. "Forget it. I'll start from the beginning. From now on, you're not allowed to speak."
"Why should I …"
Mo Tiange angrily opened her mouth to bite him, but Qin Xi didn't give her a chance. He clasped her chin and bit her tongue to stop her from speaking.
After a long time, he finally ended this entanglement.
Her breathing was unstable. She finally managed to catch her breath. "You …"
He stopped her between her teeth. "I told you, from now on, you're not allowed to speak. If you want to speak, then neither of us needs to say anything."
"…" Mo Tiange felt something was wrong. Why did it seem like she was being led by the nose by him?
But if she didn't listen to him, it seemed like she couldn't …
Seeing her confused expression, Qin Xi couldn't help but laugh. He combed her messy long hair and said softly, "Listen to me, okay?"
She hesitated for a while but eventually acquiesced.
It seemed … she had no choice but to acquiesce.
"I … admit, in the beginning, I didn't have any feelings for you. I just thought it was good to be Qin Xi and get along with you.
At that time, if I became Qin Shoujing again, you'd definitely stay away from me. Besides, you're so paranoid. If it was Qin Shoujing who saved you, would you still be so close to me? "
Mo Tiange didn't answer, but he got the answer from her expression.
Qin Xi smiled. "You seem … to always be afraid of power that surpasses your own. Maybe it's because it makes you feel unsafe.
I can understand that guarding that kind of secret requires you to be careful in every aspect, but this kind of vigilance will make you reject all kinds of power you can't control.
If I were Qin Shoujing, you definitely wouldn't trust me. Even if I saved you and took you back to Xuanqing School, it would still be very difficult for you to have a sense of belonging to Xuanqing School, right? "
"…" Mo Tiange really wanted to refute him, but what he said seemed to be right.
The first person she trusted was Senior Martial Brother Qin, so when she came to Xuanqing School, she slowly accepted this kind of life and found it wasn't that hard to trust the people around her.
Even though she was disappointed in Senior Martial Brother Qin later, Luo Fengxue, Ye Jingwen, Martial Uncle Xuanyin, her master … These people made her feel that trust wasn't that scary.
Senior Martial Brother Qin wasn't the whole reason, but he was the first reason.
"Of course, it was because I also liked this kind of feeling. I felt that in front of you, being a little cultivator in the same realm as me was much easier. I could say some things and do some things without any scruples …"
At that time, she really felt that he was sincere and frank. He didn't hide anything, was frank, fair, and clean, but …
"Then there was the demonic beast riot," Qin Xi said.
"I don't know how to explain this matter to you, but I can tell you that I wasn't in a good mood at that time because I wasn't targeting you."
He wasn't targeting me, but he still had that dead face?
Mo Tiange said angrily, "You …"
"Hey!
I told you! You're not allowed to talk about it now. "
Mo Tiange shut her mouth even more angrily.
"Maybe you don't know something happened."
He took a deep breath. For the first time, he planned to tell her about this matter. "Did you notice that I was seriously injured when I came out of the two Deification seniors' Virtual Sky World?"
Mo Tiange thought about it and nodded.
Although he didn't say it explicitly, she could see it with her eyes.
Qin Xi smiled, somewhat self-deprecatingly. "In fact, it was because inside the Virtual Sky World, that Senior Yuan Bao said I had a Yang Spiritual Bead and was suitable to practice his cultivation technique, so he tortured me …"
Faced with Mo Tiange's questioning gaze, he had no choice but to tell her the truth. "He made me eat a lot of strange things and used a lot of inexplicable methods, almost torturing me until I was half-dead. It was precisely because of this that I was seriously injured.
He said it was to transform my body, to make me infinitely close to a Pure Yang Constitution, so … so I could … become your Human Furnace … "
By the end, he was almost silent.
Mo Tiange widened her eyes and finally spoke. "Human Furnace?"
"En."
His face turned slightly red and he looked away. "He said although I wasn't born with a Pure Yang Constitution, I have metal and fire spiritual roots, both of which are of the Yang attribute. I also fused with the Yang Spiritual Bead. After his transformation, as long as I slowly cultivate his Pure Yang Technique, I'll become the same as a Pure Yang Constitution … In that case, being your Human Furnace can help you cultivate faster …"
Mo Tiange kept staring at him, almost not daring to believe what she heard.
Human Furnace?
She had always been afraid that she would be forced to become a Human Furnace because of her constitution. In the end, he was also … afraid to become her Human Furnace?
This, this, this … What was this?!
He felt very uncomfortable under her gaze. "I admit … Senior Yuan Bao's words were too much of a blow to me, so as soon as I came out, I was in a hurry to go back to heal my injuries and enter Closed Door Meditation so I could advance to the Nascent Soul realm as soon as possible. Because of this, I also vented my anger on you …"
Mo Tiange was speechless for a long time.
She originally thought she would still feel angry no matter what reason he gave, but … but this reason … was too ridiculous. It was so ridiculous that she couldn't even speak and didn't even have the strength to get angry …
"Tiange," he said nervously, "I … Are you laughing at me?"
"…" After being silent for a long time, she nodded expressionlessly. "Yes, I'm laughing at you."
"Sure enough …" He sighed and laughed at himself. "I know it's ridiculous, but … I don't think you understand how humiliating this is for me."
"I don't understand," she said. In the next moment, she grabbed his collar and gnashed her teeth. "But I know you've been deceived!"