Ah, he had mixed feelings.
Under the bright light, Sun Lang quietly read the letter from Mingzhou.
The content of the letter was as reserved as ever, just like the shy girl. But there was also passion hidden in the reservedness. She expressed her expectations, wishes, and hopes.
A hero …
Sun Lang's gaze drifted.
The six years of fighting on the battlefield were memories he didn't want to recall, because all his heroic past was actually based on an extremely selfish truth. As a visitor from another world, he originally had a peaceful and happy life of his own. He came to this world and fought for this world. It was never his idea to come to this world and fight for it. It was a despicable coercion.
As an ordinary earthling, he suddenly came to another world one day. This world was being tortured by evil enemies and needed a hero to save it. Therefore, the visitor from another world naturally became the chosen hero. He led everyone to defeat the enemy and obtained the meaning of life in this strange world. This kind of story was very familiar to him. There were many similar stories.
But this was not his story.
His story was much crueler than this. He didn't face a cowardly king who begged for a hero to come. Instead, he faced selfish superiors who were desperate and desperate. His story of saving the world had a cruel beginning and an extremely ironic and ridiculous ending.
Yes, the hero even defeated the demon king and defeated all the invaders … but the process was not as beautiful as it was described in fairy tales and epics.
This world … was not beautiful to begin with.
As for Sun Lang, who had experienced all these things, it was only natural that his heart had already fallen silent. The sense of accomplishment from killing generals and seizing the flag, the sense of honor from defeating the enemy, all of these had disappeared with the wind, as if the glory of being a hero that once existed had been swallowed up by endless blood and darkness.
He didn't believe in the so-called heroes, the so-called legends, and the so-called glory.
Because he himself was a part of the biggest lie in the history of this world. He had personally experienced, witnessed, and remembered it.
So … a hero?
He chewed on the word and thought back to the past. Yinluo's smile appeared in his mind. This girl's expectations and expectations were all written in this letter.
Although he didn't say it explicitly, Yinluo had indeed expressed such thoughts.
He hoped that Sun Lang would be able to find his heroic self and stand under the sun again.
She said that no matter what the reasons were, those six years were indeed memories that she had created. Those people, those things, those victories, those sacrifices … The bloody battle that lasted for decades, under the threat of extinction, the entire nation fought against foreign enemies. People from all over the world abandoned their cowardice and cowardice to fight for the same belief. This was an epic story that made one's blood boil.
And in this epic, there should be an indelible figure.
Just like Bai Yuwei, no matter what he did in the Great Desolate Mountains, his achievements and contributions over the past few decades would not be erased. Even Sun Lang still missed his heroic past.
Since even Bai Yuwei's past would be remembered, why wouldn't she be willing to remember her own?
— — This was probably Yinluo's unspoken words.
But … how could it be so easy?
Sun Lang slowly smiled and shook his head.
Yes, fate makes fools of people, and by a freak combination of factors, to this day, wanting to transcend, how could it be so easy?
But … if this is your request, then I'll try again.
After all, you worship the heroes of Tianyuan so much, after all, this is what you want. It is said that every girl has a dream, that the person they love is an indomitable hero. Although you don't say it, you must have such thoughts in your heart. Since that's the case, then I'll try again.
Sun Lang continued to read with a faint smile. There was still one more page in the letter.
But then, his smile slowly faded.
From the handwriting, Yinluo seemed to be very hesitant. But after hesitating for a long time, she finally wrote it down.
She told him about what happened during the day, how Sister Bao's emotions were surging, and how they were worried. Yinluo said that the two sisters were temporarily appeased by her. They were both good girls and would not come to trouble him because of this kind of thing. They would put their hesitation and fear in the bottom of their hearts and wait for him to give them an answer. But they hoped that he could come back as soon as possible after finishing his business in Qinzhou.
Because it would be better for the knot in their hearts to be untied as soon as possible.
The content of the letter stopped here. Looking at Yinluo's resentful writing at the end, Sun Lang fell into a long silence.
The Rongguo Mansion was related to his previous identity and the reason why he came to this world. It was the beginning of everything, and also the last tie that connected him to the past.
He had wanted to cut off this tie cleanly. But after seeing Sister Bao and Sister Lin, this idea faded away, because they had never forgotten him.
Even when they heard the bad news and thought that he had died in the battle in the Great Desolate Mountain, they did not give up hope. They publicly announced that they would marry into the Jia family and choose to observe mourning for him. If he didn't come back in ten years, they would wait for ten years; if he didn't come back in a lifetime, they would wait for a lifetime … They were infatuated and resolute. They did it for only one thought without complaint.
This kind of emotion made him feel at a loss.
Since the end of the battle in the Great Desolate Mountain, life had a clear weight in his eyes. His emotions had become indifferent, his compassion had become scarce, and his sense of morality and right and wrong had become blurred.
In his eyes, there was not much difference between a newborn baby and a heinous criminal. If he decided to kill, he could strangle a hundred babies to death without batting an eyelid. Because even if they were babies, they were no different from ordinary people. They would all be deprived of life, so there was no need to distinguish between the big and the small. Killing was killing, and the murderer was a murderer. It would not be different because of the identity of the person you killed. They were all lives, and killing was killing. There was no difference.
But that matter was not a problem that could be solved by waving a sword and killing people.
They had always remembered him, waited for him, trusted him, and sincerely treated him well in this world.
Trust, waiting, and love, these were the things that he craved, but they were extremely scarce.
In the face of Sister Bao and Sister Lin, he could not say no. He could not do anything excessive. He would protect them as before and not let them suffer any harm.
So, he had not been honest with them about his identity. He would rather be the second master of Rongguo Mansion for a while than tell them abruptly — Hey, your cousin died six years ago, and I am a time-traveler who was summoned here. Are you surprised? Are you surprised?
They must be scared … So, he could not be too hasty.
But now, it seemed that Sister Bao and Sister Bao had noticed some clues. After all, they were smart women. There were many clues in Mingzhou that they must have noticed.
Sun Lang seemed to have thought of something. His expression changed slightly, and he directly opened the rest of the packages. Then, he found Sister Bao's and Sister Lin's letters and opened them.
The contents of the letters were exactly as he had imagined.
Greetings, thoughts, and comforts.
They asked about his health, his diet, and the weather.
They missed that he was far away in Qin Zhou and hoped that he would come back soon.
They comforted him that he did not need to be sad about Bai Yuwei's death. They told him that they both understood and supported Sun Lang's actions. Moreover, the other Heaven's Origin soldiers would also thank him for everything he had done for Bai Yuwei.
In this regard, their views were different from Yinluo and the others. Yinluo and Sister Bao knew the sloppy Sun Lang who had left the battlefield and seen through the world. They had never seen Sun Lang's heroic side. So, when they heard about Sun Lang's choice in Bai Castle, they were excited, delighted, and fascinated.
But Sister Bao and Sister Lin were different.
They did not know anything. They did not know Sun Lang's true identity. They did not know what Sun Lang had experienced in the Great Desolate Mountain, and they did not know why Sun Lang had become what he was now.
They only knew that their husband was a peerless general who was the best in the six armies. He was the brightest star in the Book of Heroes of Heaven's Origin. In their hearts, Sun Lang would always be the same as he was in the past. He was a peerless, unparalleled hero who was hard to find in the world.
Therefore, they took everything that Sun Lang had done in Bai Castle as a matter of course. They did not feel the slightest bit surprised or surprised. They only offered their wives' comfort and affirmation.
Yes … they did not know anything.
Because of their identities, Sun Lang would not open his heart to them like he did to Zhao Yunlong. There were things that Chao Po-tao knew that they could not know.
For example, his true identity … was because Lin Daiyu and Xue Baochai were from the Rongguo family.
Sun Lang let out a soft sigh.
Regardless of whether it was Sister Bao's letter or Sister Lin's letter, the contents of the letter were just as he had expected. There were only greetings, thoughts, and words of comfort. There was nothing else.
What Yin Luo mentioned in his heart, he didn't even mention anything about their confusion and panic, as though nothing like that had happened … Just like what Yin Luo had said, they were all good ladies. If they had something on their minds, they would only keep it in their hearts and wait for him to talk about it, and not take the initiative to bring it up and trouble him.
Sun Lang let out another soft sigh.
As the saying goes, a beauty's grace is great … It felt good, but not good.
His fingers subconsciously knocked on the table. For a moment, his mind was racing. He was an impostor. He knew nothing about the Rongguo family, which was thousands of miles away. He had always been resistant to that place. During the war, the most troublesome thing was that sooner or later, when the war was over and the Sky Demon was driven away, he would have to go back. He would have to go back to that strange home and face a bunch of anxious old ladies with a confused face.
But … perhaps, he would have to face it sooner or later.
He hesitated and gradually made a decision. But in the next moment, his expression changed.
Someone was rapidly approaching from outside. Judging from the footsteps, it was Wei Zhongxian. His footsteps were somewhat hurried, as if something urgent had happened. Then, Wei Zhongxian knocked on the door.