It was a kind of unspeakable pain. No matter how many historical dramas I watched, it was hard to understand the sorrow of an ancient king. At this moment, I could understand it very well. One must know that in these few months, my body had undergone earth-shattering changes.
It was also filled with memories. Perhaps in the eyes of the Blood Demon, destroying the Zhao family, becoming the champion of the selection, and becoming famous in Nan Yun Province were all child's play, not worth mentioning. However, the feelings for Liu Jie and the others couldn't be measured.
To be able to meet them was the luckiest thing in my life. Sigh, I didn't even have the time to properly feel their gentleness, and my life was already out of my control. Could it be that I brought this upon myself was the hardest to bear?
Only then did I remember what Director Du had said. Once the Blood Demon's remnant consciousness awakened, it would be harming others as well as myself. Previously, I had tasted the sweetness because he had helped me get through many difficult situations, such as the desperate counterattack in the Zhao Dojo, the interrogation room, when Old Man Zhao was greedy and got his arm blown off. Afterwards, during the selection, he had helped me win the championship. If not, I wouldn't be where I am today.
Now, I deeply understood how terrifying the so-called 'harming oneself' was!
If I had known that it would be like this, I wouldn't have used the orb even if I was beaten to death. Even if I showed off during the engagement ceremony and beat up Gu Lang, it still wasn't worth it.
Although it was my body that was performing the deed between a man and a woman, it felt like I was watching from the side. Looking at her continuously flowing tears, this feeling was like a sharp knife stabbing through my heart.
Sigh, why did I have to use the orb?!
Director Du had already told me to leave it to master. Wasn't it good?
Just because I wanted to be in the limelight during the engagement ceremony?
Without a doubt, I had become the center of attention in the banquet hall, but I had also paid a heavy price for it.
Moreover, it had caused serious psychological damage to Guan Ruolan. I understood that this was something that couldn't be healed with time!
She wasn't a loose woman. On the contrary, among the opposite sex that I knew, Guan Ruolan was the most conservative.
Maybe it was because of her family's tradition that Guan Ruolan was a classic beauty. She originally wanted to have a passionate relationship with me so that she wouldn't have any regrets. If they were deeply in love, she wouldn't mind doing some intimate things.
However, there were always differences between ideals and reality. Although Guan Ruolan didn't know how the Blood Demon had awakened, she could roughly guess that it had something to do with the orb.
To be honest, she also regretted it. Even if she hadn't taken the core, she could have kept it with her for safekeeping. Even though I had a strong willpower, the Blood Demon's bewitchment couldn't be underestimated. At this time, Guan Ruolan didn't blame me. Instead, she blamed herself. She didn't even know whether I was still alive or not.
If she wasn't mature enough, she might have killed herself by biting her tongue. However, on second thought, if I was killed by the Blood Demon, she had to stay alive. Only then would she have a chance to take revenge!
A demon like this should be punished by everyone. Moreover, the current Blood Demon wasn't at his peak state. In fact, it was a very wrong decision for me to run out of the banquet hall.
Although the Blood Demon had absorbed the orb, his current strength was only slightly stronger than a normal Huajin Master, probably on par with Curator Du. I was naive enough to think that he could kill everyone and even surpass Grandmaster Chen.
After all, the remnant consciousness of the Blood Demon used to brag to me, saying that Huajin Master was a weakling. In fact, he was like a fox pretending to be a tiger. Curator Du had also said that this was just a remnant consciousness of the Blood Demon, not the real Blood Demon!
It was like a small county magistrate saying that his backer was Hua Xia. It was understandable, but it was a bit ridiculous.
If I hadn't run out of the banquet hall just now and asked Curator Du for help, the matter might have been exposed, but it wouldn't have developed into this situation.
However, I also knew that there was no medicine for regret in this world. Now, the only ability I had was to talk to the remnant consciousness of the Blood Demon, and I couldn't even communicate with my fairy master.
I could see the despair in her eyes. If she bit her tongue and committed suicide, I would be better off dead than alive. It was all because of my master that I was able to achieve so much in martial arts. If I didn't have that starting point, I wouldn't be where I am today.
Although I generously gave her the orb, she refused to accept it. So, I haven't repaid her kindness at all!
It would be a great tragedy if she killed herself in front of me.
What comforted me was that her dejected expression suddenly disappeared and was replaced with joy.
"Can you be gentle? It really hurts!" Guan Ruolan said in a coquettish tone, which was hard to resist.
Even the Blood Demon couldn't withstand it. "Hehe. It seems that you really like it when I call you master. Alright, since you're begging me like this, I naturally have to be gentle with you."
Ever since he took over my body, the Blood Demon's way of addressing himself had changed from "this lord" to "I" occasionally. This gave me an even stronger sense of danger. Damn it, he wouldn't be planning on taking over my body for a long time, would he?!
When I thought about how not only my master, but also my sister-in-law and Liu Jie would be toyed with by the Blood Demon, I felt that it would be better to die than to live such a life.
After that, Guan Ruolan put in a lot of effort and began to cooperate with the Blood Demon, changing her positions. I was so angry that I was about to explode. It was obviously my body, but he was enjoying it.
[This is really f * cking f * cked up. I know that Guan Ruolan has compromised in order to save her life. But, I still feel uncomfortable. In my opinion, all the responsibility for this matter lies with me.]
After all, my master was the first person to discover the power of darkness. Yet, she kept the secret and tried her best to help me. At that time, I was still weak and the Blood Demon hadn't awakened yet. If she was ruthless, she could have sent me to heaven.
However, she didn't do that. After I became the champion, if he was willing, he could have kept the orb for himself or made the matter public. If that happened, I would have become a sinner for all eternity and wouldn't have a good ending. However, Curator Du had high expectations for me and cherished my talent, so he wanted to take advantage of me.