When Lin Yanchen woke up, he found that it was already late in the morning. He first squinted his eyes and touched his body. After a long time, he could only feel the quilt and pillow. He slowly realized that Chuxun was not there, but he did not pay much attention to it at first.
He took his phone from the bedside table and looked at the time. It was already one o 'clock in the afternoon.
He had never slept so late before … Was he that tired last night?
Did Chuxun wake up already?
Lin Yanchen sat up, stretched, and yawned. He saw the sleepwear that Chuxun wore last night hanging on the back of the sofa. He giggled. Chuxun must love him. Seeing that he was sleeping soundly, he did not want to wake him up.
Lin Yanchen called twice, "A Xun … A Xun … A Xun?"
No one responded to him. Maybe he went downstairs.
Lin Yanchen was a little suspicious, but when he washed his face, brushed his teeth, combed his hair, and put on his clothes, he saw that Chuxun's clothes were still in the wardrobe. Chuxun's small bag was also there. It was the souvenirs that they bought when they traveled around.
He felt that since everything was there, Chuxun must be there as well.
Lin Yanchen did not think too much. After he cleaned himself up, he felt hungry and prepared to find Chuxun. It was time for lunch.
Lin Yanchen looked around but did not see Chuxun. He went downstairs to the living room and saw Eide. He asked, "Where is Chuxun?"
Eide told him the truth, "He left."
Lin Yanchen did not react at first, "He left?
Where did he go?
In the courtyard? "
Eide said, "The plane took off at six o 'clock in the morning. Mr. Chu flew back to China."
Lin Yanchen's sleepiness disappeared instantly. He was completely awakened by the shock. He was stunned for a moment before he came back to his senses, "He came back to China?!
Why didn't I know?
Don't lie to me!
How is that possible?
Are you kidding me?
Chuxun asked you to scare me with him?
Don't scare me, this is not fun at all. "
Eide said seriously, "Young Master, I didn't lie to you. Mr. Chu left. I drove him to the airport."
Lin Yanchen immediately became angry, "You drove him to the airport!
Why did he leave?
I don't know!
What is going on? "
He was angry, flustered and wronged. He said incoherently, "It's impossible!
He already agreed to date me … He said he likes me, and we even raised a kitten together. He said I'm the 'father of his child', Ah Xun wouldn't lie to me … Last time when he wanted to leave, I didn't force him. He was willing to stay, so why did he suddenly leave without saying goodbye?
Ah Xun is not that kind of person. Even if he wanted to leave, he would definitely tell me.
Also, I opened the wardrobe, and his things were still in there.
He did not leave...
Don't play with me. Is he hiding somewhere to see me anxious?
I'm really worried. Where is he? "
Eide shook his head, "I don't know, Young Master. I only drove him to the airport. I don't know which flight he took. But you …"
Lin Yanchen was furious, "I said stop joking!"
Eide paused for a moment before saying, "Before he left, he told me that he left a letter for you. It should be in your room."
Lin Yanchen gradually realized that Eide was telling the truth. It was just that he did not want to believe it. He still held on to the last shred of hope. He glared at Eide angrily for a long time before turning around silently and returning to his room. First, he walked. Then, he walked faster and faster. Finally, he broke into a jog and rushed back to his room.
Lin Yanchen's heart was in a mess. He was extremely flustered as he rummaged through the room like a blind man.
He looked at the bedside table first. There was nothing.
He then ran to the wardrobe and took out Chuxun's things. Most of his clothes were there. He could not remember which ones Chuxun had bought. There seemed to be one set missing.
Chuxun's backpack was still there. Lin Yanchen poured out the contents. There was still cash inside. Not a single note was missing. However, the bank card was gone. The marriage application that Chuxun had received from the Las Vegas City Hall was also gone.
A few days ago, he had taken out this piece of paper and asked Chuxun, "Should we go and submit this application one day?"
Chuxun replied, "If there's a chance in the future."
Lin Yanchen wrote his name on it without hesitation, "Just fill in your name."
Chuxun chuckled, "I'm not going to fill it in. I'm not that easily tricked by you."
However, Lin Yanchen had a card up his sleeve. He felt that this was something that would happen sooner or later.
Lin Yanchen sat by the wardrobe with a pile of cash scattered around him. He looked up and finally saw a letter under the vase on the table.
Lin Yanchen did not even dare to approach it. He mustered up his courage and finally walked over to pull out the letter.
He took a deep breath and opened the folded letter. On it was Chuxun's beautiful handwriting. The first sentence made his heart bleed. "Xiao Lin, I'm sorry. I'm leaving. Please don't come and find me."
Lin Yanchen closed his eyes. His fingers trembled. He felt that he could not read it anymore.
He stopped, took a deep breath, and sat down on the sofa. He allowed himself to read the letter.
My leaving has nothing to do with you. You didn't do anything wrong. It's all my fault.
I was too selfish and indecisive. I said I was leaving, but I came back and gave you hope you shouldn't have.
I'm sorry.
I didn't tell you that I was terminally ill. When we first met, I only had a few months left to live.
I'm sorry for hiding it from you.
I'm sorry. Because I was dying, I wanted someone to accompany me.
You're a good person. The luckiest thing in my life was meeting you. However, I should be your unlucky one. I'm sorry.
I really had a good time in the past month.
After I came to the manor, I finally understood that our meeting was probably a misunderstanding. You didn't sell your body. Although I still don't know who you are, I didn't ask you because I was leaving. You didn't have to tell me.
A selfish person like me is not worthy of your love. I'm just a burden to you.
I know that when you read this, you'll think that you don't mind my illness. You might even want to come find me.
I have to tell you clearly that I don't want you to come find me at all. Even though we've only known each other for a short period of time, you should know a little about me. I'm very stubborn. Sometimes, my self-esteem is too high. I don't want you to see my sickly, sallow, and haggard appearance.
That would be too embarrassing.
Letting you see me die day by day is a kind of torture for both of us. It's better not to see you.
I also know that you're very rich. Maybe you're trying to find a good doctor for me.
Please don't be like this. I've already checked. There are no cases of my illness being cured in the world. If I had chosen treatment at the time, I might have been able to live a few more months.
However, I chose to be with you and delayed the treatment. You don't have to blame yourself. I don't regret it at all. Using a year and a half of being trapped in a hospital bed in exchange for half a month with you, I feel that it was very, very, very worth it.
The aurora at Meng Lian Lake and you are both miracles that I'm grateful for.
Thank you, Xiao Lin.
I don't expect you to forgive me for being shameless, untrustworthy, and lying. I'm too terrible. I really don't deserve your love.
You're still young and have a long future ahead of you. You're also so good. In the future, you'll definitely meet a good person who won't be as terrible as me. We'll grow old together.
I'll give you my blessings in advance.
I'm sorry, Xiao Lin. If you really liked me, please respect my will and don't come looking for me.
I'm really sorry.
Chuxun.
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Lin Yanchen saw a few small circles on the letter. Those were dried tear stains.
He also saw the tears fall on the letter. Fresh tear stains appeared.
Lin Yanchen had never thought that he would be so flustered and helpless at this moment. It was even worse than when he couldn't stop Chuxun from coming down last time.
He finally figured out the sadness that he had vaguely felt all this time. Chuxun had tried hard to hide but still couldn't get rid of it.
He wanted to put the letter away, but he didn't know where to put it.
His hands couldn't help but tremble. The letter actually fell to the ground. He bent down to pick it up but accidentally bumped into the table. The glass vase fell.
"Bang."
The vase shattered. The glass shards sputtered. Water splashed onto the letter. The withered roses fell into the mess.
Lin Yanchen remembered these flowers. Chuxun had told him not to pick them and to let them grow on the branches.
He insisted on picking them. Even if he changed the water properly, the flowers would gradually wither day by day.
Lin Yanchen half-knelt on the ground. Ignoring the glass shards, he hurriedly picked up the letter. Half of the letter was wet. The ink had melted, and the words were blurred.
"Sword Immortal Green Gourd."
A Chuxun had left this letter for him, but he dirtied it as soon as he got it.
What did he do?
His hand was cut by the glass. Blood immediately gushed out, dirtying the letter even more.
Eide heard the sound of something breaking upstairs. He hurried over and saw Lin Yanchen's hand covered in blood.
He walked over and held Lin Yanchen's wrist. "Let me clean it. Your hand is injured.
You need to calm down.
Calm down. "
Lin Yanchen suddenly asked, "He loves me."
"He loves me. That's why he doesn't want me to go find him."
"I still want to go find him. Should I go?"
Eide thought about it and said, "This is your life. I don't have the right to make decisions for you.
But I think you've always been a determined person. "
Lin Yanchen finally calmed down. He stood up and said, "You're right."
"I want to go find him."
The author has something to say: It's still 30 red packets.