Tang Jinyan wasn't a brute with low EQ. He couldn't understand Xu Xian's behavior because he didn't dare to imagine it, but it didn't mean that he didn't have any doubts.
His current performance was simply too obvious, and he really understood what was going on.
Xu Xian's heart was beating fast, and her mouth was so dry that she couldn't say a word.
She knew that he saw through it.
It was too obvious, and anyone could see it … Ugh … Xu Xian, you're so stupid, where did all your acting go …
This was a tragic lesson. Both of them clearly wanted to study hard, but they couldn't listen to a single word in class.
It was fine that they whispered to each other for half of the lesson, but after they finished whispering, they were still lost in their own thoughts. Even when the bell rang, the two of them still sat there motionless.
"You …" Tang Jinyan finally spoke, "If you don't have anything to do, why don't you go out for a walk?"
Xu Xian didn't dare to look at him, and just nodded.
In fact, there were many places in the university that were suitable for a rendezvous. Students had a natural sense of smell for such places. Even after school was over, they would always be able to find a place that only belonged to the two of them.
Unfortunately, neither Tang Jinyan nor Xu Xian had learned this skill. Looking at the field full of people, the two of them couldn't help but stop and feel a little scared.
He turned his head and looked at the shaded path that he had walked through before. There were pairs of young men and women openly hugging and hugging each other. There were even some who directly hugged and bit each other, deliberately causing tons of critical damage to the single dogs lying in ambush outside.
Tang Jinyan scratched his head.
Xu Xian also scratched her head.
The two of them looked at each other, shook their heads, and laughed. The embarrassment of blushing and heartbeat just now disappeared with a smile.
It was unknown who started it first, but the two of them tacitly turned around at the same time and walked to the garage.
"I might have fallen in love with you," Xu Xian said naturally.
Tang Jinyan wasn't surprised, and just said, "I'm very surprised.
Because I don't think there's anything about me that you like. You should hate me. "
Xu Xian shook her head. "I thought I made a mistake before, but … I wanted to see you. I went to Professor Lee's class several times, but you weren't there. I was very disappointed. That day, I accidentally saw you at the music center. I was very happy. When you said that you wanted to continue to draw the line between us, I was very sad.
I can't fool myself anymore. "
Tang Jinyan shut his mouth. He did not know what to say.
Because this was the first time in his life that a woman had confessed to him.
It was no longer a trap, but a real woman. It was also no longer some of the people with ulterior motives that he often encountered in the past, but a real confession.
His heart was pounding, his mouth was dry, and his mind was empty.
Xu Xian walked slowly and tilted her head to look at his profile. Her eyes were clear, "Actually, that day at the music center, I wanted to confess to you.
But … I know you have someone you like. I don't want to be a third party, and I don't want to be a triad lover. So, I think it's better for us to be friends … Now that you know, it's fine. I'll let you know my feelings, and let me know yours. Let's not draw a line between misunderstandings. I don't like that kind of artificial drama. "
Her words made Tang Jinyan look at her in a new light. He realized that he had never really understood this girl. In his mind, she had always been an upright and old-fashioned person.
It wasn't until this moment that he suddenly realized that she had her own philosophy. She was an independent soul with a fresh mark on it.
Tang Jinyan's mind finally came back to life. He sighed softly. "If you ask me what I think … what do you think I should think?"
Xu Xian laughed self-deprecatingly. "Most likely … it's a gift. It's a waste not to play."
"Actually, you really don't understand me." Tang Jinyan shook his head. "I have a principle. Whoever is good to me, I'll be good to them.
If in the past I wanted to get you into bed and have a taste of being busy with my affairs, I definitely don't want to hurt you now. "
Xu Xian turned to look at him. Her eyes were shining.
Tang Jinyan was expressionless.
Xu Xian thought for a while and said to herself in confusion, "Why do things with you always inexplicably revolve around those dirty things?
I can't even talk about pure things. "
"Because that's the most fundamental theme between men and women. It's not shameful to clearly understand one's own desires. I never believe that there is a pure relationship between men and women in the world.
My identity and the way I do things magnifies this theme, so that you and I can understand it at a glance. "
"What about Ren Jing Oni?"
"Soyeon and I have been friends since we met. I'm very confident in my loyalty, so I can keep my bottom line.
Even if sometimes I have some evil thoughts because of her beauty, I can easily suppress it. "
"So … you can't keep it to me?"
"Maybe I can, maybe I can't. I'm not confident about it."
Tang Jinyan finally turned to look at her and whispered, "You and I have been intimate before. It's different … I'll want to finish the business that I didn't finish last time."
Xu Xian was silent. She understood what he meant.
If he didn't want to hurt her, it would be best if they didn't have any more contact. Otherwise, one day, he would want to finish the business that he didn't finish last time and have a taste of being busy with his affairs when he was young.
In the end, they still had to break up.
Xu Xian sighed secretly. However, she wasn't sad this time. Instead, she felt a little sweet and warm in her heart.
Because this time, he was thinking about her from the bottom of his heart. He didn't use the opportunity of being confessed to to coax her into bed with sweet words.
Xu Xian had a standard in her heart. She knew that if he did that, she wouldn't be able to resist.
But he didn't do that. He was kind.
She suddenly said, "You're getting more and more soft-hearted. Is it because of the change brought by love?"
Tang Jinyan thought for a while and said slowly, "My soft-heartedness depends on the person. It's just that … there are more and more people who can make me soft-hearted."
"So, I'm part of it?"
"Yes, you're part of it."
Tang Jinyan said softly, "The one and only woman who likes me. I'll never forget her for the rest of my life."
Xu Xian smiled slightly.
The two of them walked to the garage unknowingly. Tang Jinyan didn't know why he parked his car next to Xu Xian's car.
Tang Jinyan took out his car keys but didn't open the door. He looked up as if he was thinking about something. "To be honest, I have a strange feeling. I don't know how to describe it …"
Xu Xian stood between the two cars. She looked left and right and smiled brightly. "Tell me. Maybe I can answer it."
Tang Jinyan thought for a while and said in a low voice, "Whether it's reality or drama, there are many men who reject the girl who likes them, right?"
Xu Xian smiled faintly. "Yes, there's one standing right in front of me."
Tang Jinyan said in a daze, "I'm thinking. A few years later, when they see this girl married another man, what would they think?
How would they feel? "
Xu Xian was stunned. This question seemed a bit profound. She didn't know much about relationships, and she didn't have similar friends to provide her with a reference. She couldn't answer.
Tang Jinyan looked up and thought for a long time. He didn't know what kind of emotion he was feeling. He muttered to himself, "I always feel that I don't want to see that day, but I really don't want to hurt you.
This feeling is very awkward. I don't know how it came about … Speaking of which, I used to just throw her away. I've never felt so awkward … "
He muttered and quietly got into the car. The Land Rover roared and left the garage.
She didn't know if it was an illusion, but Xu Xian felt that the Land Rover left in an awkward and hesitant manner. It was no longer as arrogant and domineering as it was when he said "I'll be cooked in five cauldrons if I die".
A few months ago, Tang Jinyan, who had always treated women as his bedding, experienced for the first time what it was like to fall in love with someone. It was like a ray of light ruthlessly striking into the boundless darkness. It seemed to be swallowed by the darkness, but it was always stubbornly lurking and spreading.
He didn't know where it came from, but it couldn't go away. He wanted to avoid it, but it followed him like a shadow.
Now, in the most successful period of his career and relationship, Tang Jinyan finally experienced what it was like to be liked by someone for the first time. It was also the first time he experienced another kind of inexplicable regret and reluctance in the process of making a choice.
It was just that he still couldn't identify what kind of emotion this was at the moment. He couldn't imagine what kind of virtue he would become if he allowed this kind of emotion to develop. What kind of ending would his seemingly stable love life head to …?
(End of Volume Three)
PS: Please use six words to summarize Tang Jiu's emotions, you know (^ _ ^).
The different themes of the three volumes should be clear, right?
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