The night was chilly, and the moon hung high in the sky. The commotion in Mingzhou had calmed down. Everyone was silent, and everyone was asleep.
Sun Lang and Zhao Yunlong were done talking. Tiredness overtook them and they decided to rest. They walked side by side into the backyard, when Zhao Yunlong suddenly bumped his shoulder and pouted in the direction of the courtyard.
The ranger was startled. He glanced at Zhang Yinluo's courtyard, then shook his head with a smile and gestured to Zhao Yunlong.
Old Zhao pursed his lips and smiled, waving his hand.
Sun Lang stepped into the courtyard and saw the moonlight shining down on the white stone steps, illuminating a lonely figure. Yinluo was hugging her knees and sitting on the steps in a daze. She didn't enter the house and just sat there in a daze like an abandoned animal. Her face was filled with confusion and helplessness, making her look extremely pitiful.
She heard the sound of footsteps and looked up to see Sun Lang. Her face was filled with joy at first, but then she turned her head to the side and said, "Hmph, why are you not sleeping with your cleanly washed comrade? What are you doing here?
What, do you think your bed isn't big enough and want to use my room? "
The ranger laughed and sat down beside Zhang Yinluo. He reached out and patted the girl's head. "Don't worry, if I wanted to do anything with Chao Po-tao, I would've done it long ago during the war …"
Zhang Yinluo pouted and pushed Sun Lang's hand away. "Don't touch me … What am I worried about?
I'm not anyone to you, why should I be worried about you? "
Sun Lang raised his eyebrows and smiled. "I didn't say you were worried about me, I was talking about Chao Po-tao. The peerless beauty in your heart, General Zhao Yunlong, is still a pure girl who hasn't been tainted by my evil claws. Don't worry … Eh, I'm curious, Yinluo. Why are you in such a hurry to deny that you're worried about me …?"
Hearing this, Zhang Yinluo glared at him. The inexplicable depression in her heart had unknowingly dissipated by more than half. However, the girl still refused to admit defeat. "You didn't do anything?
Seeing how General Zhao was so willing to do anything to you, you actually held back and didn't do anything?
And according to General Zhao, you didn't have the ability to be shameless back then. Why … Oh, I knew it. Were you afraid that General Zhao would beat you up? "
Sun Lang raised his head and looked at the sky. After a moment of silence, he laughed softly. "No, no … There was a period of time when I didn't have any lust, not at all.
Don't laugh, it's true. The me back then was a model of morality, a model of the army, a perfect human being, upright, trustworthy, keeping his promises. To the enemy, I was as cold as winter, but to my own people, I was as warm as spring. I was like the sun in everyone's heart … "
"… I've never seen such a shameless person."
Zhang Yinluo squinted. "I can't imagine you without any lust. A model of morality, pfft …"
"It's true. At that time, I was thinking of ways to solve my … um, psychological problems.
You know, veterans on the battlefield always have all kinds of psychological problems. My problem is more troublesome … After fighting on the battlefield for a long time, I will become a killing maniac who regards life as nothing. This kind of person usually doesn't live long. My situation is more serious because my psychological problems don't only come from the tireless killing on the battlefield … "
"At that time, you wanted to live, to keep your sanity, to remember something, to live … Only by living can you do more things, and make all the perseverance and sacrifice meaningful, right?"
Sun Lang organized his words and said softly, "At that time, I thought of all kinds of ways and made a lot of efforts. This is one of the more effective ways."
"Do you know, the shopkeeper who usually welcomes people with a smile and persuades customers with kind words may have a manic and dark side in private because he wants to vent the grievances and grievances during the day. A killer who kills people like scything flax is mostly an ordinary and friendly good person in his daily life. He follows the rules, is willing to help others, and never causes trouble because he also has to balance the indifference and cold-bloodedness when he works … Yes, balance, balance."
"So I tried to be like a good person at that time. I was as cruel as I was in the war, and I was as friendly as I was in daily life.
I made friends with everyone, listened to everyone's story, helped them as much as I could, and made friends with them.
I did a lot of good things and made a lot of friends. Sometimes, when you fight side by side on the battlefield, there will be people who will treat you as a friend of life and death. Sometimes, when you charge to rescue people, hundreds of people will be grateful for your kindness … The battlefield is the best place to gain reputation, it's really true … The friendship of comrades who rely on each other for life and death, the prestige in the army, the respect of the people, the gratitude of the people … These are simply the best medicine … "
"But paralysis does not mean cure. After all, it's a fake thing. Once the effect of the medicine is over, the backlash will be even worse …" At this point, Sun Lang's eyes flashed with a trace of indelible hatred, but he immediately recovered and restrained his emotions. He smiled and said, "That's another story …"
Before he finished speaking, he felt a heat on the back of his hand. Zhang Yinluo's right hand pressed on his left hand.
The girl looked into Sun Lang's eyes and whispered, "Backlash?
What backlash? "
The ranger smiled and stretched out his hand to flick the girl's forehead, "Forbidden matters. In other words, your favorability is not enough to start this plot. Heroine, please continue to improve your favorability."
Zhang Yinluo curled her lips in slight disappointment.
"In short, don't worry and don't be confused. Chao Po-tao and I are innocent … At that time, although my mouth was very loud, I never intended to do that kind of thing. When I think about it, I was really stupid."
Sun Lang smiled, "It's late, go to sleep. If I didn't come today, would you have sat outside all night?"
Zhang Yinluo blushed and muttered to herself, "I don't seem to be in the right state today … It's very strange, not like my usual self.
Maybe I'm a little confused … It's all because of you, Sun Lang. "
She moved her gaze to the side and whispered, "I originally thought you were just a ranger with a bad character who liked to loot a burning house. At most, you had some ability, but later I found that things didn't seem to be so simple.
Later, although I guessed that you might be a hero of Tianyuan, at most you were a small officer who was very familiar with Hu Huishou. But today, you and Hu Huishou were at daggers drawn, and you had the upper hand. Today, General Zhao was not only not angry when you ordered him around, he was even willing to endure it … Sun Lang, who are you, you … "
Her voice trembled, "Why did you agree to help me? Why did you take me in? Why did you set up this firm with me?
To you … what am I … "
Sun Lang was slightly surprised and looked at Zhang Yinluo.
The girl only gave him a stubborn side profile.
It seemed that Zhang Yinluo had already realized where the problem was.
In front of him, the identity of the so-called pearl of the Zhang family in Mingzhou and the disciple of the so-called Wu Xianzi of the Spirit Vulture Palace was as laughable as a piece of paper. To be able to treat the world-famous General Zhao Yunlong as a subordinate, his identity made people not dare to delve into it. To be able to say something like "I'm afraid of killing Hu Shouxin" so casually, his martial arts could be said to be appalling …
In that case, why would such a person treat a relatively ordinary little girl so favorably?
Perhaps … there was only one reason.
His body didn't seem to be affected by that strange power of his …
The girl's body was trembling slightly.
Sun Lang was dazed for a moment and then said softly, "At that time, in order to keep my mind from being swallowed by darkness, I made a lot of efforts.
In addition to the feelings of comrade-in-arms and utilitarianism, I also tried to seek family affection. Even if it was fake, even if I was not that person, it still made me feel the long-lost warmth. Only love … "
"Maybe there was … I don't know if it was love. I once felt peace in her arms, but for her … I had more complicated feelings. They were very complicated and not pure at all …"
Sun Lang stood up and came to Zhang Yinluo. He squatted down and pressed her shoulder, looking into her eyes. "But if it's you …"